Whole 30. What?

Um. Yeah. So that was more like Whole 2. Because that's about exactly how long I lasted.

I had and "ah ha!" Moment last night.

You know. I decided I have the eating habits of a 12 year old boy.

So today, I would start anew.

Then I woke up.

Cupcakes and cinnamon rolls on the table.

For my birthday.

Thank you, dear husband.

How am I supposed to not eat those?

Blog Overhaul?

Perhaps that is in order.

A complete overhaul. Of this blog.

I am not a dedicated blogger.

Do people even read them anymore?

It doesn't matter.

The reason to write is not because other people read.

Or maybe it is?

No-- my reason is for motivation.

For accountability.

Tomorrow, or today actually, the Whole30 starts.

Shit gets real.

Happiness

Is a choice.

I choose happiness.

I keep repeating this to myself. 

I choose happiness.

What do you have if you don't choose happiness?

My life has changed so much. 

15 years ago, I had no idea I was going to fall in love with a Marine.

10 years ago, I had no idea I was going to have a dead baby.

5 years ago, I had no idea I would find myself back in my hometown.

Raising my kids a mile from where I grew up.

Today-- I have no idea what the future will bring.

I do know that I need to take control of my life.

I need to choose to be happy, for me.  For my kids.  For my husband.  But most of all, for me.

I say...

Everyday is the day.

Today will be different.

Yet, I still keep gaining and losing and gaining and losing, or losing and gaining and losing and gaining, the same 8-10 pounds.

I lose 10 pounds.  I gain 10 pounds. 

I am done with this cycle. 

What next?

Here's the Story, Morning Glory.

My life is chaotic.

Seriously.

I keep getting lost.

But then found again.

I am "found" right now.

We'll see how long it lasts.

It's January 26th, 2012.

I haven't been back here since my last blog post.

I always mean to, and I have downtime to do it, but I usually get sucked into pinterest or some other online something or other.  ;)

I also haven't forgotten to take before pictures.  But I haven't taken them yet.

They are coming. Promise. 

Then you can all point and laugh.

Then you can look at me come summer and say, "whoa!"  ;)

Welcome to 2012

A few days late.

I admit, I have not been a great blogger.

Confession Time

I have a confession to make.

I am not perfect.

Family

I have three beautiful children.

My second child, my second daughter-- she died.

Self-Discoveries

As I am getting older, I am discovering things about myself.

Great.

I hope today was not an indication of the year to come.

In the spirit of maintaining positivity, though, I am going to say that I grateful that it isn't worse...

Hello, 2011

I have closed the "other" place.

I am still blogging there, I have just made it private.

I took this photo last Sunday.

It is totally unedited.  Raw. Taken on auto-pilot. ;)

I like it.

It's a perfect representation of fall in Pennsylvania.

This is another photo.

Lost in the corn.

The What

The title says it all.

Re-creating me.

The Who

I have another blog.

You can find it here.

I have stopped blogging there.  Mostly.